Talk About it Tuesday: Anti-Depressants
One of the words I want to live my life by is being intentional. It's a transforming word really. I think when we decide we want to be better we can and will be. It's one decision at a time.
Since the onset of my diagnoses of depression I've been on a lot of different anti-depressant/anxiety medication at different doses. It's horrible to come off of. I've tried to go off cold turkey before, and it has always ended up being hell. Currently I have been taking Effexor 75mg. I remember the struggle just 2 years ago crying for days, feeling like I would never get better, that I'm going to be on medication and so messed up the rest of my life. I was scared of (and still am) the diagnoses "severe reoccuring depressive disorder." Would I fall into a dark place with no warning?
I recently shared with my Primary Care Physician I'm ready to come off my anti-depressant the right way; weening off. I'm in a really good place mentally, physically, and spiritually. I love my job most of all, I love who I work with, I love my church, I am able to now get back to things I enjoy doing like writing! About two months ago I began the weening off, not going to lie, it was hell the first week or two! There was a lot of sweating, electric shocks to the head, body shakes and chills. But I got through it. By next month I should be completely off my Anti-Depressant medication. It will always be there if it need it.
For a lot of people this isn't an option and that's okay. It doesn't mean you aren't intentional, or aren't enough of whatever we feel we aren't enough of. For me it was the notion that I wasn't trusting God enough. That's what frustrated me, I was doing all the right things, in all the right places, saying all the right things yet I still suffered. Psychology is a real thing, the mind is a real thing.
Wherever you are in your need for meds to help make what your brain isn't, you aren't less of a person, you aren't weak...we all operate different and need things at different times in life. I'm grateful for the tools I learned in therapy and in the hospital most of all. Everything will be okay, it's going to get better.
Resource:
https://www.canwetalkaboutit.com/
This link is from Biltmore Church a church I love to visit, I've listened to Pastor Bruce for 20 years. He just wrapped up a series at church teaching on emotional health. Click in the right hand corner to find resources and Sunday messages.
3 THINGS I'M THANKFUL FOR:
WARM WEATHER, VEGETABLES, TECHNOLOGY
LAUGHTER:
I LOVE LEANNE MORGAN!
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